Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Too hardheaded?

It's been over a week since I've talked to him and I can't help but wonder, am I being too hardheaded? I just want him for once to contact me first. He missed our Dr. appointment yesterday and still I hear nothing from him. I think we are both too stubborn to cave in.. how long will his go on for? I'd like to actually get together and talk before I go into labor so it's not awkward in the delivery room, but neither of us are willing to cave in. I'm tired of trying to get him to realize things.. it hasn't worked for 8 1/2 months, I don't think it will work within the next couple weeks. Maybe it's just better we don't talk at all. If he really cared at all about his son, he would put our issues aside and at least try to be civil towards me so he wouldn't miss out on any more experiences. And even though I know it's not my fault.. I can't help but feel horrible that he's going to miss out on a lot of our son's growing up. I wonder if he thinks about how much he's actually going to miss.. his first steps, his first words.. he even missed feeling him move while he was still inside me.. it's a hard pill to swallow knowing he'll never get these experiences back.

1 comment:

Lindsay said...

I think you have done a great job so far, and hopefully it will fall together. A's coming and that should open his eyes. I would hope so. I'm excited =) <3 love you